I don’t feel like I can do this, I don’t think I’m ready for it. I thought tumblr would be inspirational, I thought I was ready to put myself out there but I just have a mental breakdown every time I think about it. I tried taking a few pictures of myself and I was so uncomfortable I had to delete them, I couldn’t post them.

I’m still struggling with an ED, I still compare myself to everyone else around me and I still make excuses.

But, I’m still working out and I’m trying to watch my food situation (though it is harder to eat healthy at home)

So, I don’t know what I’m looking for here. I have no followers, and only a few tumblrs I regularly check for progress. I don’t think I’m cut out for this, and I’ve spent all this time trying to convince myself I am. I guess maybe I’m begging for help?

inspiremethin:

Blogs come and go, some become busy, others fall off the wagon. It happens. Next thing you know your dashboard is becoming less active, and your old favourite weight loss blogs suddenly disappear. Which means its time to revamp our followers lists!

Reblog if you’re an active, HEALTHY weight loss blog who posts regularly, new or old. We need to know you’re around!

(via healthyfitgleek)

If you’re a weight loss/healthy blog.

I’m recovering from a bit of a ED. I’m new at this blog thing, so I’m really looking for more followers/more people to follow!

Any help appreciated! I love you all!

I’ve been getting a little “blah” lately, ya know? Only a week + finals left of this semester and my brain and body are telling me to stop.

I haven’t lost weight since I hiked 14 miles in Arkansas about a month ago. I’m hovering around 206, which just…sucks. I’m going to the gym but I’m missing that last little extra “umph” I need to start lifting weights, and I KNOW that’s my problem.

I’m going to take it easy for the rest of this semester. I’m going to get this tumblr all finished, watch my food intake and excersise but I want to enjoy myself. This is the hardest semester I’ve been through, so at the end… I’m going to buy myself a 1-month pass and a personal trainer to get me started at a gym near my home! I deserve it, and I think that will give me that little bit of strength I need to really get into weight lifting and build my stamina.

So, over the next few weeks I WILL be adding pictures, stats, etc.